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Saturday, November 24, 2007

I wanna live somewhere away from here(maybe america**snickers**)

A place where i can see the night skies

so dark and red, so enticing.

Thursday, November 22, 2007

Well, since my friend didn't like my opening up,
imma vent my doubts and regrets here.
i've been feeling useless and as if i have nothing to look forward to anymore,
my friends feeling has started to fade yet mine has not subside.
i'm not exactly sure if they don't feel shit no more but i certainly see nothing.

well , i'm now watching an anime called honey & clover, this is good, this is one show that i recommend all to watch, even those who don't watch cartoons.
not only me but i bet many others can relate themselves to this anime, in doubt of life and love,
th show will either show you your story through the screens or might even provide alternatives to tackle problems you see familiar in your life.

i have a hunch that this ain't the end, and i bet more is gonna leave.

i dont see my future the way it is right now, i dont see my future with people i have right now.

i dont see shit.

Wednesday, November 21, 2007

Who knew heading out to work today could stir up so much in me today.
First of all, i think there is a curse in the apron of the head chef i work for.
for the first time,
i scald myself for three times or maybe four
(a blob of burning oil found it way to my hand),
being in pain and all leads me to my next topic i had in mind,
being in pain DOES NOT MEAN IT TAKES YOU AWAY FROM IT,
this is meant for those wrist slitting lovers,
it does not take away emotional pains,
its just reminding you of the reasons that made you cut yourself.
That is why people of an older age resort to self-indulgence rather than
blood spilling ecstasy.

indulging in work to forget is also not a proper way for amateurs like me.

on and on i go through bout things that went through my mind today,
i still cant get over the fact you're not around here(referring to country) anymore.

i hate everything

Monday, November 19, 2007

Today is a day that will go into my history books,
today,
someone who meant so much to me left this God forsaken country,
today,
is one damn sucky day.(cause someone left)
It kinda suck when you start to regret and shit,
babbling on bout that little hope that you didn't grasp,
that possibility of changing things.
Love i didn't know how to express,
regrets i did not voice,
all builds up within me,
making me feel sick in the guts.
Though ten years down the road i might laugh bout it with my friends i miss now,
now it just hurts so much more than i thought it would,
so much more..

P.S. im saving up cash to head east (: wait for me.