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Wednesday, November 15, 2006

now i can blog...what could be better than this?beautiful wednesday morning at 8 o'clock ,blogging bout life, preparing to teach a student, plans to play bball...hmm seems to perfect, lets wind back abit~~~~~~~~~morning when i woke up from the sofa, body aching, nvm ill just crack my bones here and there....and i realised something....something i felt before...IM SICK!i hate being sick, makes me to powerless and lonely but thank god im not working today. but i need someone to nurse me, actually is i want someone to nurse me. my mum is working so is my sis. i wan a companionT____________T geez i sound so desperate....as a matter of fact i do lol aw well fuck it. ill just be more egoistic, talk to myself more than nurse myself back to health muagagagaggaa im an idiot.im free, lets talk bout my past.im just doing this cause im bored...i talked about pri sch life before. now secondary life.sec one was ok. some moments were intolerable(if this word even exist) but i realised in that year ppl shunned me. i was sort of the out cast.yea i still hang out with the guys but they made fun of me all the time. so during sec one i only had 2 real friends who really accompanied me throughout the year. michelle and mellissa. im not sure if they knew how much thier friendship meant so much back than and now too.sec 2 was neutral i cant rem much.i dun wanna rem sec either. oh well, so much for a long talk. aiivue

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

ok my mid 5th week of working very tiring lol and im kinda sick so ill make this fast im sick of everything ok aiivue.my sis wanna snatch the comp so...long for now lol

Sunday, November 12, 2006

some ppl say sorry seems to be the hardest word, but i can say it as if its flowing out like water. that sometimes question my sincerity. i wanna have another shot at apologising now. i've got a hunch i wont see her till after christmas. @$%!!@ im screwed up. im feeling down again, cause one of my friends is leaving sg and migrating to some other country better than sg. i need a heart therapist and anger management...for yesterday when i played dota with my peeps, one of them kept saying something...well not kept, started to repeat some annoying words. for me all helll broke loose than i shouted at him. im not sure what i said. but i rem a sorry was in my sentence, 3 things i experienced, 1,a very comfortable anger outbreak, as if it was a long time since i was angry 2, my sorry seemed like it wasent for him, felt more like it was for someone related to him instead. i dunno i thought of that person when i screamed. and 3 my heart was uncontrollable, it was thumping so hard that you could see my shirt moving to the beat.... lol i might have a cardiac arrest LOL