Sunday, September 30, 2007

freaky ? i know . this came across by accident when my friends and i on the way back to school.
which reminds me that next week is my last week in school. i'm regretting and all ya know.. not making full use of my four years and such. if i'd had just hang out with jr and zf earlier, i would have already experienced this strong feelings i have now for this girl. i cant say im in love but ..iono, just something i never felt before, not even with my family.
i can say im a heartless bitch, so many of life's ups and downs, made me into an iceman. i said i like girls before, but most likely are just infatuations nothing more. i have always told myself that only personality prevails over image. but im just another fraction of the countless hypocrites out there, not till last year though.
I'm a sucker for astrology, but now i dont really like it at all. it says my zodiac sign dosent go well with the girl. Pissed . wanting to go against the books, i told my close friend my plans. now all is for naught, realising my last week is actually this coming week kinda make me moody. never really smiled , just sulked the whole day, cept for a couple of times when i talked to her.
I never felt more miserable, not even when i left my dad's side.
This is a more matured misery. lol.
listening to "Mesmerized" by Lifehouse