Sunday, November 12, 2006
some ppl say sorry seems to be the hardest word, but i can say it as if its flowing out like water. that sometimes question my sincerity. i wanna have another shot at apologising now. i've got a hunch i wont see her till after christmas. @$%!!@ im screwed up. im feeling down again, cause one of my friends is leaving sg and migrating to some other country better than sg. i need a heart therapist and anger management...for yesterday when i played dota with my peeps, one of them kept saying something...well not kept, started to repeat some annoying words. for me all helll broke loose than i shouted at him. im not sure what i said. but i rem a sorry was in my sentence, 3 things i experienced, 1,a very comfortable anger outbreak, as if it was a long time since i was angry 2, my sorry seemed like it wasent for him, felt more like it was for someone related to him instead. i dunno i thought of that person when i screamed. and 3 my heart was uncontrollable, it was thumping so hard that you could see my shirt moving to the beat.... lol i might have a cardiac arrest LOL